First, here are a few thoughts on my illness that lingered a few days into the month. I don’t feel like I adequately described the experience and how I got through it. That’s because I was still affected by it when I wrote that health update. I had a sinus infection with whopping headaches in the 6-7 pain range that occurred mostly during the morning and night. It lasted for a couple of weeks.
Even when one has had chronic health problems and gotten through them, my experience in myself and working with my clients is that those old susceptible areas of the body and conditions are lingering right under the surface. They’re ready to come back when the body gets the slightest bit out of balance. Sure enough, the illness brought back my hotspots of pain at the base of my skull and shoulder blades. I also had the occasional recurrence of pain with urination.
My first reaction was consternation. I had ambitious work goals and was in the best workout groove of my life, and now my body needed extended rest and recovery. I thought and complained on paper a bit about the loss to process the negative emotions, which I find always helps. This action cleared most of the feelings. I was able to rapidly accept that it would take a lower productivity period to get back to my healthy self quicker. The deadlines would have to shift, and the video launches of the new batch I recorded and the two I needed to record would have to slide. It took all of my energy and focus to maintain client work.
This process only took me a few minutes since it’s second nature for me after how many times I’ve done it.
Then I immediately turned to solutions, which I have plenty of thanks to my near-lifelong health problems. This part of my mindset is one of my greatest strengths–I quickly process losses of value and pivot to what I can still do. I think it’s one reason I was able to have resilience for so long while disabled.
I knew that my new ill limits were constraining me, so that meant it was time to retreat and retrench in my proven routines that got me out of my years of disability.