This makes the first time I’ve written about being sick during a health update. I came down with a sinus infection after traveling. It wasn’t COVID, though. I mention this for two reasons:
To my amazement, I got cranky when I noticed I was getting sick. I have met being ill with a shrug throughout my life, so this was an odd reaction for me. I’ve only gotten sick a few times during my recovery, but this was by far the best I felt before the onset of illness. A dear friend noticed my frustration and crankiness and said: “congratulations, you’re a normal human now. You’re not used to feeling poorly.” In the past, I felt so poorly most of the time that getting sick wasn’t that different from how I normally felt, so it never used to bother me much. Now that I’m healthy, I know how great I can feel and all the work and exercise I’m capable of that I’ll miss out on when I’m ill.
So, strangely, getting sick turned out to be another way of proving to myself how far I’ve come when I realized that my perspective with feeling impaired has shifted. Recognizing that feeling good is the norm helped me to see my overall progress even when the sinus infection had temporarily halted my improvement.
I also did some quick math to boost myself: I was disabled for roughly 15 years, so that’s 5,475 days. Thinking that this illness didn’t even crack the worst 5,000 days of my life really put it into perspective. And thankfully, I still have all my memories and skills for how to navigate such impaired circumstances, so I quickly adjusted and sailed through the period of illness, even continuing to work half days.